hey guys..

first of all happy new year to all of u..~

hmm.. while we are enjoying.. sad to say that my bf grandpa just passed away. just 50 mins before new year and he left the world.

dunno why i cant seems to enjoy this new year alot. maybe because everytime i go to his house i used to see his grandpa at home. Though didnt really tok to him just everytime go there call 'uncle', go home just say 'bye'. But more or less is someone who u often see.

And because his grandpa died of cancer. It just simply make mi think of my aunt who also passed away 1 year plus ago and again because of cancer. And maybe because of this i can feel the pain. My mum doesnt allow mi to attend his grandpa wake cause is new year period and she is those 'pan dang' type of person. I can just go without letting her noe. But i just dun feel like telling lies. But no matter wat i think i should go down for at least once.

I feel tat his grandpa like very pity because when he passed away on wed. The next day is new year. And no one wants to set up the wake and even if they willing to take this 'business' is triple the price. And even if they want, nobody would attend as is 1st and 2nd day of new year.

In the end they got no choice but to freeze his body for 2 days until 3rd day of new year den set up the wake. hai...

Cancer is really a very scary diease..~~ my bro's friend. Within 1 month. Both her parents detected hving tumor in their body. And her mum is at 3rd stage and his dad alr last stage. I suddenly feel that.. life is really so precious.. do treasure ur family and ur loves one..

Is new year and i noe i shldnt have say these to make things so sorrow.. but i just feel like sharing with u guys as i find tat here is a good place which i can share things with u all.. at least i feel better when i say out.. but u guys wun mind..

^aN^