qi, an: have to get your facts right. did i blame anyone particular here? did i force anyone to be who i want them to be? And if you say im selfish, let me tell you, everyone's is selfish. No point being a saint infront of everyone and at the back? I'm straight-forward and this is me.
And did i take a gun and say everyone have to go?
You go ask hui, mel, hong, etc, did i force them to go when they say they didn't want to go?
if none interested, fine.i didnt make it complusory anyway
and you go and ask those guys, when i brought up this issue or when zw brought up these issue, what did the rest do? Keep quiet.
and so i msged them.
it's not as if we've known each other for only a day or two.
That is why im harsh in my msg when i forward them.
i need an ans and my cousin need it to.
And you know i hate last min things.
And this is the prob within the group.
No one wants to voice us and i'm surprised.
And now im the one voicing out, i get slammed.
Please, there's nothing wrong voicing wat i feel.
If you people dont agree that's fine.
I also nv say everyone have to agree with what i think.
This is only my opinion.
Even shu an also think this way just that she didnt say it out.
But in my case, i feel no point keeping it inside
Otherwise there will be no progress in this friendship.
I didnt want us to remain stagnant all the time.
And qi, you're not here.Although the rest will fill you in with info, you really have to be here to feel it.Then you can really suggest.
And i'm sure one or two, or many will feel that we are already started to go each own's way w/o even realising it.
I didnt say it's good or bad.
It's good to make more friends but on the other hand, everyone have to work tog to hold on to this friendship.Not relying on just one or two people.

and it's not as if i didnt reflect on myself. When i posted this, i think of everyone's feeling and including me.And i say me included when the problem arise! Not you people only.And i never say im a perfect person.What i post is not directed at anyone.
This is the common prob among us.
and it's not that i always have to argue and want to win.
you should know what im not the kind who you let me win and i will forget it.
like in a r/s, when u find there's a prob, you try to solve it.And i don't see why people can't do it the same here.what for if you have a prob and didnt want to come up with a solution and there's nothing wrong with me rebuttaling. Maybe i'm the only one who find there's prob.Fine, because everyone's taking everything for granted including me. It's human nature thinking that yah because we are friends that's y u have to be there for me. Always this case? No.Not really.


so in a nutshell, im not blaming anyone.Whatever post i posted never were and never will be directed at anyone.This is soley on how i feel.And you can take that im bullshitting, go ahead. Couldn't care no more. If you think just because im of the same age as everyone, i have no right to say you people, then what are true friends for.And when i say you people is not pointing my fingers at anyone. As a whole. And i nv say im not a fault too.There will be some point of time when im wrong also.
And there's nothing you can do much about my stubborness. Something none of you can change. Regret to say tt.


PS: when i say ' think about it' it all depends how you people intepret what mood am i in. if you think im in a foul mood, then you will think im scolding you people. And if you think another way, this is the beautiful side of english. Playing around with words, making the whole thing flow smoothly instead.The way how i put the words tog may mean that im angry to you but in fact im not. I didnt like beating around the bush.Clearcut.I know myself more than anyone. None is me. Unless you talked to me in real person, only then you can judge me on how i feel and what mood am i in. Don't be judgemental on how i feel and presume i will feel the way like you portray me to be when im not.

ciaos~